Shhhhhh subconscious whispers
I over analyse situations because i am scared of what will happen if i am not prepared for it.
I am not honest with myself because if i am, I may not like me.
I'm afraid i will have to make a choice… I am not ready to look at or make.
I am afraid that if i stop my secondary gain, will I be accepted without it?
What happens when I am no longer a victim, will I be strong enough to survive?
If I am well, if things become better I'm not quite sure I will know what to do next.
I stand in my own way because if I let myself heal completely, I wont know who I am anymore.